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dear angera

EMAIL to my (vegan) [half-Japanese]  friend who got married in a fairy tale style wedding last weekend and is in hawaii this week. She ordered some Tupperware at the Waffle Party. This note just made me laugh, I hope it makes you laugh too. This is just how we talk to each other … lolz.


Hey gangsta

Yer BANANA GUNS are here. Yeah, that’s right, those obnoxious yellow weird shaped pieces of crap you bought for some dumbass charity.

What d’ya want me to do with them??

Hope your honeymoon was scrumptious and that you are fat, happy and preggers by now.



P.S. ANGERA – YOU were the most radiant bride I’ve ever seen!!  It made me puke with giddiness *xoxoxo*


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twitface II

Hey, my twitter feed is now located on the sidebar of this blog. I likely update twitter several times a day in lieu of lenthy blog posts. This at least helps me to feel connected and archive ideas that I may want to write about or reference at a later point.

Feel free to follow me on twitter, or comment on my ‘tweets’ on wordpress. It’s all about staying connected!



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Life seems to be best encapsulated by music (for me lyrics usually) but I will refrain from posting an entire song on here today. The one that’s been running through my mind is Synthesized by The Epoxies (again, another DDR-X pick).  Look it up on you tube if you want. ‘Nuff said.

Anyhow .. have been feeling more creative lately and small bit sof narrative, story, questions, etc. are coming out. The challenge is to keep them going, hopefully to produce something tangible.  We shall see.

In other news … have been working on modeling, putting together a portfolio. I should have some photos up on flickr soon from two photographers I met … Also secured a position [on-call]  figure modeling for a large art center in the area. Have yet to do a class there though.

Hey check out my etsy shop!  – Free form and custom crochet & knit goods.

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Love letter

It’s been a few weeks since the last letter/post here. I want people to know (in case they are worried) that things are fine – I’ve just been going in and out of a general disappointment with situations, people.  The other side of that is that thankfully the friends I have made here do shine through and remind me of all that is worthwhile in Utica.

Lately I have been reading this cheesy compilation of historical love letters. They are charming, and quite fascinating … I guess I am looking for some answers or questions to my own emotions.

In any case, I am posting a ‘love poem’ that I wrote a few months ago, really a found poem, composed from lines of imho one of the best lyrical albums ever – Vespertine, by Bjork.  * Disclaimer: One of the songs on the album in an e. e. cummings poem set to music, and of course I had to borrow some of those lines.*  The music on this album is very powerful, and this poem, for me, is erotic but sad and dark.


I have a recurrent dream

  pedaling through the dark currents

of the pleasure in me,

  looking hard for moments of shine.

Through the warmest cord of care

  your love was sent to me.

I’m not sure what to do with it.

Swirling black lillies totally  ripe …

Feel my breath on your neck

  and your heart will race

But careful, careful

  There lies my passion hidden,

there lies my love.

I will take the sun in my mouth.

Will I complete the mystery of my flesh?

I wake up

   and the day feels broken.

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Reducing your consumption

If you have a chance / are interested, take a minute to check out the Animal Writings blog right now. He’s put together a really comprehensive bunch of strategies and tips for meat-eaters to reduce their meat consumption and increase vegetable and fruit consumption – something which I think we can all agree is a good thing, whether or not you give a fig about animals, their welfare, or their rights as sentient beings. You also have a right to great health, and shouldn’t keep yourself confined just because you’ve been raised in a culture that teaches you to eat meat as a default without ever seemingly asking your consent. You actually have a choice!  Choose more vegetables!!

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Some Updates …

 Things will smooth out/slow down soon, but here’s an update.

 Work:  I am still working at the O-D/Pennysaver.  At my suggestion, the building manager is putting in recycling bins on all floors and the employee productivity committee is taking my corporate wellness/yoga suggestions seriously. I leave vegetarian propoganda around the break room (and people eat it up! pun intended) and make vegan muffins for my coworkers so they can see what they’re missing 😉

Home life: looking for a new apartment by the end of the month. And yes, my last name is now Asay-Stewart. Wedding photos forthcoming!!  It was an awesome event with family and community all around us. Many told us it was the most down-to-earth ceremony they’ve attended … awwww.

What I’m reading: The newest issue of Bitch Magazine (yeeehaww) and journalism by Keith Harmon Snow.

 Will be adding more links to my blogroll soon. Tuesdays and Wednesdays are so slow at work that I surf half the day (unfortunately) but I haven’t been writing b/c I couldn’t find my wordpress password. Now I got it, it’s all good…. hmm but I guess I COULD actually be writing at work. <Good point, Self.>

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Cluster & Fruit … flies

Wow time flies … this week has been so PACKED I haven’t had much time to sit down and write. Of course that’s when I start getting a lot of creative ideas.  I just wrote an editorial … to be published under a psydonym in the Pheonix. Stay tuned for that one.

Hunny has an art opening tomorrow night, so he’s been working on it pretty much every night. He’s still not back right now (11:30pm). It’s a collaborative show, using text, poetry, and painting to show the evolution of the relationship of the two artists. He will be performing spoken work tomorrow night at the Resonance Center at the opening.  Unfortunatley, this is the last show at the lower Genesee Street location until further notice … the R.C. is moving. We’re not sure where to yet.

They had a fund raising auction last Saturday, which was more fun than I’ve had in a while. We ended up dropping $125 on an original Adam Spiridilozzi piece …. worth every penny that could’ve bought groceries and paid our phone bill this month. If I had a camera I would post it here. The painting has taken the most prominent place in our apartment, in the living room as soon as you walk in.

Then come the flies. The kitchen is a mess, a mish mash of half diced onion, garlic peels, dirty dishes and empty condiment bottles as we paw around for remenants that can be assembled into a meal. Neither of us have been around at the same time this week for meal times, and with our various odd eating proclivities, the flies have been having a field day.  I washed half the dishes yesterday on N’s promise that he would do the other half … in the meantime they’ve doubled again.

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